exam is over.
headache + stomachache snatched all my concentration away.
I felt guilty by the words,I think I have let her down.
I am sorry.
y didn't I think about it before????
I will make it up.I promised!I will and I must.
today, I rushed to aunt's office
I was late due to my stupidity.
I will be alert next time.
I always feel nervous,afraid,and pressurize whenever I go there(some very important and genius pp there)
I hope I don't have to go anymore.
Then they said that they had a news for me
actually 3 yi was reluctant to speak as she thought that mum should tell me personally
my god!my heart was beating in an uncontolled manner the moment I heard someone passed away.It's my cousin from father's side.
I was dumbfounded...
fought back my tears...
Li ce said it happened few days ago.
before I could shoot her 'y',she told me that they wanted me to focus on my exam.
This year,2009,two relatives
first 2nd aunt frm mum's side passed away
now is my cousin.
don't knw who else
I am afraid,really afraid
god,please don't take away everyone around me
I can't take the blow
I am still reeling from shock
my bro is keeping in the dark
I will tell him perhaps tmr
now I heard again another news
Alicia-my cousin is unhappy
after all the hardwork she put in,in the end the results aren't good
I have read your blog.
certain things are like that
cheer up,try harder next time,there is always hope...
TO SOMEONE
don't think that way,please.
you don't knw our feeling towards you so stop guessing all those negative stuff
you make everyone unhappy and vexed.
If you think you are the one who gets hurt,then you are wrong!
It's pp around you.
It's not that you donn't knw but you choose to blind to them
If you have problem,feel free to come to us,to solve it.
donn't create all those 'things' to provoke us.
you become the source to our distraction
you are not forgive and forget
If you forget,you will put the matter down.
Pursue you own lifestyle,activities as usual,not keep disturbing all pp around u
It disturbed me too
If you forgive,then you will put down all you unhappiness towards us and give us one more chance to understand you
you life will be very boring if you only think of all your unhappiness
you forget all the happiness that you encountered before
sometimes don't keep looking at other pp weaknesses but also try to think of their strength
nobody is perfect, includes you
you can correct us but before that think deeply whether you need to correct/adjust yourself
Don't make the trivial matters into big problem.
I don't wish her come to me everyday, telling me abt you.
I had enough things to deal with.
lastly,everyone please take good care of yourself.
