hmm...
I spent my afternoon and evening with cousin helen
to keep her occupied or she will sleep


I just don't understand my brother
he doesn't...?I can't stand it!
he is like lost in a jungle, no direction,no daily routine
looks so lifeless and boring
then I rather he goes to school
arg...so arrogant!
like a robot,everything needs to tell then he knows...
for those teachers who said that he is responsible,I really doubt
must start frm basic de mah,doesn't start frm basic then expect what?

Smile always | 10:17 PM

It seems that I see cx almost every day.
we were having breakfast this morning and lunch together.
talked too much abt the class outing.
after much consideration,I still think that it's not right.a&a.
since nobody can ...them.now it's my turn.
I will give a speech to ...
the objectives are to raise the awareness to everyone....,convinced a&a,and to persuade them.
whatever questions that they have,I will give them a satisfying answer.i try at least.
if I fail,I shall give an ultimate one.I will announce it and let others think it/view it bec I feel that everyone must know what's going on..one person cannot call the shot bec it involves everyone.
eh,I forget to ask u,don't you think that we should do wat is right than what they like??I remember we learnt last time in ss (sec 3).so her way...is kind of......to others
do we have a combine class??a right moment??hmm...we shall see
hope I don't stutter..
hope I can talk and got the opportunoty to do so.

Smile always | 9:01 PM

this is it.
finish.
I am officially don't need to go.last time I used to think that I would be happy if I don't need to go.well, today I taste it,but not happy just neutral,no feeling.
I have given my best this evening.no mistake.no regret.
I still feel the feeling of satisfactory,triumph and totally exhausted.
I have been yawning till I lost count...so sleepy just now.but still stay awake.
I think this is best of all.the performance.
this is the last performance.the very last one.and it's the last day I wore the co uniform.
we gave a great shout after that.
some girls were crying...they love co very much
I just sat there and watched.no tears.no sound.
I am a coldblooded person may be,just don't have the feel.
but I will cry by time if I were to leave sch.a real one.a hard one,that I won't forget...
I want to cherish every moment...everybody.....


I saw a couple was kissing in the bus on the way back to sch!a real one!!
wah!err...you may think that i am too ''sua ku'' or whatever...I don't care.
but is this kind of thing norm nowadays??
I still think it's kind of inappropriate.my opinion only.don't be offended.
still young and all..the guy was so eager..aw...hai yoi..it's disgusting leh.
all of us seemed to be dwarf by their presence.



I saw this photo then..
just realise that my knee there is o che down there..
sorry ah donno o che in eng..
need zam-buk!!

I pin up my fringe.this is the first time!!
by the way, I am the only one who is diff with the rest in holding the flute,the direction.I don't know why...

bb co!!!

Smile always | 11:23 PM

mt lesson every day..
somemore more than 1 hr...haix..
those pp are so noisy
can't keep their big mouths shut...so selfish..
they have affected others who wanted to learn.

so odd,I miss english lesson
bec almost every day we have eng lesson
then suddenly so many days go to sch without having eng lesson??
ai yah...just feel something amiss
we haven't done the mye correction
the compri

what's wrong with her ...??
seems quite serious
is it very very painful?
the lift seems to be useless..and I am no the only one who thinks that.
poor her has to plod her way up to whichever storey(s)


I don't really mind to miss chem lesson but I do mind missing phy lesson
so many things that need to be done
and it's urgent to me
and no more phy lesson this week:(
I am worried my spa file..messed up my spa exams then now my file?don't know if it's ok..
my A has gone and now I am trying to secure my B
hmmm....hope I can do well for spa skill 3.last chance.
I doubt i can.let's be realistic though I hate it...I simply hate practical
the scene of me standing in front of strange objects provided flashed through my mind
a clean sheet of paper with no steps given to set up the experiment...
tiny beads of sweat kept appeares on my forehead..I was practically blank!
no idea.in the end ,I just anyhow set up and record the inaccurate readings..
luckily didnot waste thinking abt watever negative stuff or else I won't have enough time to do the experiment.I could sad later,after the exam and I did.
I think it was stupid.but that's what I did
it was wed, we have co
I walked and walked and walked for what seemed like eternity
then just kept quiet.
that's all.then ok le.but now,still feel a bit diappointed.try to do watever I can to amend ba..

arg...
I made a grammatical error when I spoke to mrs Tan this morning in the general office
I swear I knew the correct form but the moment I looked at her,opps..I couldn't bring myself to talk.
no afraid of her but feel awkward at her gaze
I wonder how am I going to face the examiner?for the oral exam...
when I can't look at her face??or I will start to stammer..at the same time trying to grope for the right words to say???who is to going to wait for my reply???

tmr co!!!
hope everything is gonna be all right
hope I have the affinity to see him or her tmr
then I can get my result slip
oh, and mr chan
my w.s is with him.haven't answered all and must include on practical file...
tons of work to do... corrections???

Smile always | 9:05 PM

I am going to fall sick again!!!
oh...no!!!feel so terrible...
so irritating....

finally I finished the correction..
so slow..like a tortoise...
It took me so many days
but I realise sth...hmm.....very crucial..
thank you

I want to rest first.....
shall continue tomorrow??shall I??


monday
It's going to be a tough day
must face it
bear it
I hope the ... ends faster
I don't wish to go:(

Smile always | 9:54 PM

I am bored to death now....
all my resources are at home
how to work??

It's so noisy here
I cann't focus on my story book
anyone can recommed me a more secluded place at sch??
not toliet pls...

now,I prefer to attend the international students english lesson
at least it's so quiet and peaceful...
and I learn sth..


erm..
I don't wish to interfere but if they ask for my view,I will give
let them do and we just have to trust them on the task given to them
if in the end they fail,then we can come into picture, help to find the solution
just wait and be patient.
don't add in unnecessary burden to ourselves
I don't think my puny brain can take it.
so don't worry too much
that's why I don't want to.....


on last thing,
i couldn's help but have to write it here
this the first time I see such ridiculous person,the most so far
if that person does business I can tell straight away that the person will fail
wah, use the word 'compulsory' to force us to .... that we don't want
it's the person's fault as the person did not ask.... before make a decision.
awww,I don't like it,anyway who does??
the person should not take so many of the....
the person is trying to escape from losing ...
somemore the person is a .....
should be more understanding...willing to hear any comments/feedback
but I doubt so keep quiet is the best

Smile always | 11:55 AM

I still find it hard to believe
my ss is higher than my geo!!


hmm........
look foward tomorrow
mum's coming hopefully
at least got someone to accompany me

woah,today mdm tay asked me abt the day I didn't go to sch..
she thinks I studied at home
that friday I wasn't studied at home la
somemore exam finished al
then after sch,as usual went to general office to put class diary
then the clerk also asked the same qns..
what a coincidence...
I must say that women are so observant...
I actually like to go to sch than stay at home lo
friday,It was an accident la

Smile always | 8:57 PM

It hit me hard!
actually...
but it's just that one thing that bother me a lot!
just could not figure out
but at least,I got to see the real....


cx,be prepare
mon...
no need to wait anymore
it's pretty obvious...
but I still doubt about that....I need to witness it with my own eyes...
so stubborn hor??I don't care....
and thx for keeping me informed

clb ah..
score quite good..
hmmm....
ok lar....
now I am real interested in chinese
but trying very hard to resist the urge to touch the book...
It's not the time yet.......

Smile always | 9:46 AM

hmm....
my leg still pain..
walk too much....
must be due to lack of exercise.


today,erm..
this is the first time I am not in rush!!not busy!
feel a bit weird bec normally I don't have much time to waste...
so I thought sometimes busy is better than bored.

Smile always | 8:12 PM

exam is over!!!
went for a hair cut just now right after the exam
I want to start a new way of handling stuff
bec i just realised what I have been doing is not really productive
feel so fresh!

now since exam finish le
time 4 reflection...
mr chan has been reminding me of...whenever he sees me...
keep asking me qns ....omg!I think I ...
the truth is,he is caring .
and ok, I promised to......

the moment I saw a math pp2..
mmmm........it's enough to pulverize my self esteem
really have no energy at that time

then eng paper
that stupid compo if mine...
I couldn't remember wat I have written but somehow I just think that it's out of point
this is the first time I wrote compo in less than one hour for exam and I didn't even need to...
and pp busy study other subjects during weekends but me??busy study eng..
read and read and read.in the end,I ended u writing compo with everything combine together ??
dun even know or care whether gt link or nt

clb paper
finally I agree with her.memorising is not the way..so I just read,know more words and in the end I still can make it.enjoy the story,you will write better!

then ss
after realise that I had written down sth stupid again bec i reall don't know how to tackle sbq
and one more thing
since ss paper over,I constantly remind myself of index number
must really thank her sincerely but just couldn't open my mouth to say
and I did write my index number ok?It's on the 2nd pp bec i did qns 2 first.
it's not never.

through this mid-year
I realised I begin to like geo!
I used to like history a lot but I didn't dare to take history
bec partly I am afraid my eng cannot make it, I dun like sbq and then there was one thing,it happened when I was sec 2,i still remember.I think I failed my geo for mid year.but overall 50.then I was stubborn at that time,want to prove that I actually can pass geo.



one more thing!!!
the clicking sound of the high heels!it was so irritating!!
i almost want to stood up and straight away told that lady to just sit down and stop making noise!!!dun understand why must make so many noise..
and the hall is so warm....

Smile always | 7:01 PM